there's nothing wrong with doing work at night. or, sleeping late/waking up late. i mean, it's just how some people like doing stuff. i'm more productive at night, it's quiet and i just like the night.
sadly my mother refuses to accept that, and basically she just comes along every night to scold me for this, that it's wrong and bad, that my "all of my friends do this" is false and that only a few, who are bad examples, would sleep late. that i'm wasting my time, and screwing up my life, because school is early in the morning. so i'd basically be sleepy during the exams. and that i'm going to be a failure when i grow up because i'm not following "the path of light" but that of darkness.
=/ which is really quite a pointless argument, because whatever i say to her she just says i'm wrong and that i'm a bad son, blahblah. it's never nice to be pissed off at her, and i'm not proud to admit that i really dislike her sometimes. still... there're times when it's just annoying. the more she goes on, the more holes i try to pick in her argument. and it's irritating when she's convinced that she's correct and i'm wrong and following bad examples, etc.
i told her that josh gets top in class yet he pons a lot, and therefore it must have something to do with getting all that work done so fast. she refuses to believe me, and says there's probably stuff he does that i don't know about, and that he is just more hardworking and ponning school is always a bad thing, so i should just "do my duty" and go to school.
i dunno, i'm of the opinion that doing the right thing isn't always equal to doing the best thing. rules aren't always necessarily for the best. it might be moral, yes, but in the end sometimes it benefits more from doing the "evil" thing.
sigh, nevermind, ignore angsty emo rant. if you're still reading, good job on skipping ahead/reading through that whole text >_>
feeling rather stoned out now due to a day of playing star ocean and slacking off work =/ which means i screwed up exam prep. ah well. go unproductivity.
for some reason i'm quite sad and whatever now, inexplicably. not just due to my mother. hmm.
